You Become Who You Decide To BE!

WOW! This was very powerful for me~! Years of thought and figuring have been summed up in a matter of minutes. And I mean yyyeeeaaarrrsssss…..this has been the week of AWAKENING for Kristen. We go to a non-denominational church here in the valley every Sunday and the pastor had a very powerful message today, as always. He said that “We are the sum of all of our decisions”. We made a particular choice every step of the way in life to get to where we are right now! Every single step was made by us, calculated by us, decided by us, and fulfilled by us. “You are on the path to somewhere, when you are doing your path.”

I really let that set in. I can’t remember the exact analogy he used but it was similar to a man crossing the street and the series of events it took for this man to actually cross the street. Like taking a step, lifting one leg, then the other, turning right, turning left, etc. It was many small precise steps that equaled one large endeavor; crossing the street. He went on to say that is how our life is; we make very precise decisions to get to where we are today. To get from her to there, there is a series of events that have to taker place. There is no waking up and asking “How the hell did I get here?”  We know…we know how we got there. Whether be it using drugs, stealing money, or being unfaithful we made every decision. Whatever it is You/I/We knew EXACTLY what we were doing each and EVERY step of the WAY.  Even if we want to lie to ourselves and believe we were seduced or taken against our will, something happened in those events that we made a choice to be there, no matter how small. When we open ourselves up to even the smallest of opportunities we also open ourselves to the largest of circumstances. Good, bad, or indifferent. 

I have been in SO many predicament’s asking myself repeatedly either catastrophically drunk or agonizingly hung over:

• How the hell did I get here?
• What the hell did I do to deserve this?
• What the F*** was I thinking?
• What is wrong with me?
• Why do I do this to myself?
• Why does everyone hate me?
• God has it in for me!!

Ok, I’ll admit, even when I was sober I still asked some of the same questions…I’d be so overwhelmed with either guilt or surprise that I’d look for anyTHING or anyONE to blame it on. I’d blame my parents, my childhood, my ex boyfriend, a teacher, a bystander – anything to save myself from the stark realization that I have been the total demise of my life. I couldn’t stand to bear the fact that I could do this to myself. What was my motivation?Why would I create such a cluster****!! So much darkness, so much pain, and  so much self destruction….Why??

Well, for a long time I didn’t know. I’ll be honest up until Wednesday I still didn’t know. I thought I did, but after that hypnosis session on Wednesday I realized that it was the path I created was for my own lessons to learn, and the ultimate lesson was LOVE. In order for me to experience Love in it’s fullness and achieve the spiritual growth I desire, I had to work for it. Sometimes, the work is unpleasant yet everything worth having requires work we don’t quite want to do. If it were easy, everyone would be doing it. I must have HUGE plans for myself in the Heavens after this life time because I tell you, I have done the work!

I’m ok with it now though, I Became Who I Decided To BE! I became HER in order to fulfill my life purpose. When I look back it all makes sense, and I have released the remaining parts of me that I was holding on to. I know this trip isn’t over but for the first time ever I am excited to be on it! I don’t worry like I used to. This week has changed me forever and for the good. I feel so grateful to be able to heal myself AND have a career that I can help others heal themselves! It’s a beautiful week!

I invite you to look at your life, what sense can you make of your it?

Who Did You Decide To Become?

In Light,

Kristen

 

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The Power of Hypnosis

Being a Hypnotherapist I am fortunate to be a part of a client’s spiritual awakening or personal discovery. I love that aspect of being a part of their process and how they allow me to be there, facilitating this incredible journey! What a blessing I have! Well, yesterday I went to go see my teacher, Linda Bennett at South West Institute of Healing Arts. I was ready to experience Hypnosis on a higher level. I have been having some residual issues in my life and I wanted them gone. I was able to process out most of my problems through schooling but a few little things are still hanging on. We are never truly “done” healing in life. Linda is our mentor, teacher, and person who painted the picture of the power of Hypnosis. She has been studying and doing Hypnotherapy for about 25 years I believe. She is truly a magical, Spiritual Be-Ing.

Now, when I met Linda I was a bit intimidated. I was so new to all this kind of spiritual work I felt like a fish way out of water. I began my Hypnosis classes scratching my head thinking “I just don’t get this”. Linda would kindly say “Don’t worry, you will”. I kept waiting for that day even into Hypno III. I couldn’t grasp my mind around how the Subconscious worked right away and how we have the ability to access the information stored there from this life time and the previous ones. To become a Clinical Hypnotherapist you need to have 300 hours of classes in various techniques and styles. You also have to attain the knowledge of what to do during sessions if something goes wrong. Not that it goes “wrong” per say but people can have abreactions, or things that happen to them during a session. They may cry, they may call out, they may get up, they may do all kinds of things. We just don’t know ahead of time so we have to be prepared to handle these situations. There are a lot of classes we have to take in preparation for our certification:

• Past Life Regression
• Fears, Phobias, Addictions
• Subconscious Intervention
• Spirit Release
• Pain Management
• Weight Management
• Smoking Cessation
• Script Writing
• Dreams and Metaphors
• Hypnosis Clinic

In these classes we all get to practice on each other and while it’s beneficial it isn’t the same as getting a professional session. I had great moments of self discovery and healing, I still lacked that A-HA moment. When I originally booked my appointment with Linda I decided to work on some business blocks I had. At the last minute I decided to work these other things. In true Hypnosis fashion we don’t talk about the story just the symptom and how it is currently showing up in my life. What is happening when these feelings are occurring and what reactions do they bring up for me? That’s it, nothing more, and a few minutes later I’m stretched out on the chair in a light trance. She took me through Past Life Regression where I went through 3 lifetimes (that is some crazy stuff right there) and how these feeling’s effected me in those lifetimes. She was regressing me back and back in time to find out where the Original Sensitizing Event (OSE) occurred, the moment that my Subconscious mind became aware of these feelings. What caused it? When did first have those feelings? We couldn’t find it in those lifetimes, but we found the same reactions I was having.

Linda regressed me back to the beginning of THIS lifetime, and I saw myself, other spirits and she had me ask them what was my purpose here this time? What lessons did I plan on learning? I saw myself in spirit form it is incredibly crazy to see yourself and others like that. It was so amazing and breathtaking to see what the Other Side looks like!! I have seen glimpses, I have seen spirits, and I have had my Guides speak to me bit NOTHING compared to this, I still can’t believe what I saw…and how we communicated! That is for a different day.

After a series of events and questions it came down to the fact of me wanting to experience Love, I wanted to know what Love was. So I designed events that would cause me to learn that no matter what Love, is all that matters. If you don’t understand what that means read the book The Little Soul by Neale Donald Walsh, it explains everything in detail.

My life has been filled with so much pain, my heart broken again and again and I always wondered what kind of mess did I get myself into in this lifetime? The experiences I had that caused my heart to break caused me to experience unpleasant  feelings about a lot of things. I was beginning to question myself, question Spirit, question this whole existence. I was a strong, intelligent women with these silly issues hanging around. I discovered I am at the height of my Spiritual awakening and now is when everything will make sense. It is my understanding that before we come down here (earth or this realm) we sit with our Creator, the Angels, and our Spirit Guides to discuss and plan our Spiritual Purpose. We all have a purpose, no one has been born in vain, We may have gotten side tracked, we may have been led off our path but Spirit ALWAYS finds a way to bring us back. That nagging feeling about things, that sudden shift in thought, that brilliant new idea, that waking up in the morning deciding to do something different feeling is all Spirit getting your attention!! I thought I was lost forever. For years I felt like my life was a mistake, I felt like a joke and I felt like there was no way in the world I could ever be happy. I felt like I was being punished for something I didn’t know about. For al the work I have done in the past year and a half I still felt insecure and part of me was feeling undeserving. Why? Why couldn’t I shake those remaining feelings? What I found out during that session was I am exactly where I need to be…

That is the power of Hypnosis. In a 60 minute session we went into 3 lifetimes, up to the Heavens 2 times and had a little chit chat with my Guides and other helpful spirits,and back down to earth for the final wrap up. I wasn’t ready before yesterday, I wasn’t in the right place to hear those words that were told to me. To see Spirit on the other side; so pure, so clean and so full of love was just the medicine my little heart needed. Not only do I know why I have had these residual feelings, but I also know my life purpose and WHY I have had the life I do. I essentially planned it that way. When I saw myself on the Other Side in spirit form I was an amazingly excited spirit to come down here. We were all hooping and hollering and getting ready for the journey. My Guides reminded me of my decisions before coming here, and it warmed my heart and I was moved to tears. It gave me the courage I needed to keep going and doing the work of helping others discovering these amazing possibilities. Thank you Linda……

What a blessing! I am charged up and ready to go! I just wanted to share what a recent hypnosis session can be like. They aren’t all the same, but they can certainly bring something to the table we did not know before. It can be an intimidating or perplexing thought to go inside our Subconscious and root around for answers and ideas.Having the ability to be open minded, having a facilitator you can trust, and have the willingness to ACCEPT what you learn can be the key to turning your life around in ways that nothing else can. I invite you to be daring, to be excited, and to be willing to see what has been missing from your life!!

In light

Kristen

 

7 Ways to Begin a Spiritual Foundation

I am preparing for a presentation in my Universal Laws class tonight and the “7 Laws” is my presentation piece. It’s been no secret I have had a difficult time connecting to a spiritual foundation even though I had become a minister. I just knew that is what I had to do and the rest would follow. My job is to help others connect to their spiritual-ness, and not really be concerned about my own. People say “Well, how can you teach someone what you don’t even know yourself?” I said “Easily, I  don’t have to have the answers, I only have to have the questions.” As a Life Coach or a minister it isn’t my job to tell anyone what to believe, it is simply my privilege to ask powerful questions and hold space while my clients contemplate their meaning of spirituality. It’s a beautiful position to be in, that’s for sure. If I were in Ego, or in my head worrying about not having all the answers, I would have to wait to obtain a Ph.D from Princeton Seminary before I felt ready. Trust me, the teacher for this class has just that and his knowledge runs deep and wide. At first I was intimidated now I just soak it up.

Our assignment was to create a presentation based on some of the Spiritual Laws we had studies in class or we can research and make up our own. We looked at the Course of Miracles, and nothing there resonated. I looked at the 11 Insights of the Celestine Prophecy, still no connection. We read Doreen Virtue’s break down of the Kybalion (Hermetic teachings) called Divine Magic: The 7 Sacred Secrets of Manifestation and while it was great, they weren’t speaking to me. However, for a Doreen Virtue book that one really clued me into some energetic and Universal factors I didn’t know. I looked further into several other beliefs and nothing seemed to fit at all and then I came across Deepak Chopra’s “7 Keys to Success”. Now, don’t get too excited because I found at least 55 different versions of this online, including at least 5 from Deepak himself! There are the 7 Laws of Success, 7 Laws of Spiritual Success, 7 Laws of Spirituality, and the 7 Laws of Being Spiritually  Successful. No lie.

It’s the same core concepts but with different twist each time. It isn’t bad it just show’s Mr. Chopra’s advancement in his own spiritual growth. The laws themselves have held the test of time, and I thought maybe they would work for me.  So, I just picked this version and decided to change it up like everyone else has to fit my own interpretation. Once I got into it though it really made a  profound impact on me, I really resonated with the laws in relation to my own  growth. I added my own personal spin and made them unique to me.

The Universe is full of energy and it is attracted to other things that have energy. Have you heard of The Laws of Attraction? It means that what we give thought or action to (energy)  is the outcome we will have.  What you give attention to attracts energy for the Universe. We want to be highly vibrating individuals but often we aren’t, we are full of darkness and things that don’t allow us to shine. We vibrate at the lowest levels, far away from the universe so we don’t get any of the good effects it offers. By building a spiritual foundation we begin to vibrate, higher and higher and each time we take a step we get better. As we get better and heal a piece of us rises to join the Universe. We are now building a direct link and we begin an exchange with the Universe and our life begins to turn around.

Deepak Chopra’s 7 Keys to Success

Step 1. The Law of Pure Potentiality: “The source of all creation is pure consciousness… pure potentiality seeking expression from the un-manifest to the manifest. And when we realize that our true Self is one of pure potentiality, we align with the power that manifests everything in the universe.”

*Our first step on our spiritual journey is accepting ourselves exactly as we are. By discovering our “True” self  and know who you really are, it’s in the “knowing” that you have the ability to fulfill any dream you wish. When we were born we were born with pure potential, we had the ability to make manifest anything we wanted. But Ego and mankind influenced our thoughts and ideas. We began to “think” we knew what was good for us, and not trust the Universe. By removing what we think, and our Ego, and accepting ourselves fully for who we are is when we will begin our spiritual journey.

Step 2: The Law of Giving: “The universe operates through dynamic exchange of giving and receiving. They are different aspects of the flow of energy in the universe. And in our willingness to give that which we seek, we keep the abundance of the universe circulating in our lives.“

* When we are in darkness; being abused, being addicted or experiencing anything that takes away our Light we aren’t able to give or to receive. By getting into service and doing for others we begin the energy exchange, albeit a small one, it is action. It takes our focus off ourselves and puts it on those who need it. When we gain strength and begin to build upon that giving, we raise our vibrations a little more until we are eventually able to take care of ourselves. As we learn to take care of ourselves we are able to experience giving and receiving happily.

Step 3: The law of Karma: “Every action generates a force of energy that returns to us in like kind – what we sow is what we reap. And when we choose actions that bring happiness and success to others, the fruit of our karma is happiness and success.”

*What goes around, comes around. I don’t believe Karma is one big thing hanging up in the Heaven’s waiting to punish us. The Universe it is a Universal system of “like attracts like” energy. When we are not living our best life and making poor choices, poor consequences will follow. Not because someone upstairs is punishing us but because that is the natural law of energy. If there is happening over to the left be it good or bad the energy will go to the left. If something is happening on the right, the Universe picks up there is action on the right and goes there. The Universe is beyond having to decide what is right or what is wrong, it just goes where it feel’s other energy. As we learn to live our lives better we send out more positive energy thus attracting more positive energy and this results in good Karma.

Step 4: Law of Least Effort: “Nature’s intelligence functions with effortless ease  with carefreeness, harmony, and love. And when we harness the forces of harmony, joy, and love, we create success and good fortune with effortless ease.“

*As humans we were born with the  natural ability to love, have harmony and experience joy. When a new baby looks at his mother he looks at her through eyes of pure love, he doesn’t know any other way. Animals respond in much the same way. In nature, flowers don’t try to bloom, birds don’t try to fly, and humans can’t try to love. It is to be occurring naturally, but again, we get in Ego and thought, and negativity, and other emotions not serving us take over. We can actually learn to hate. Least Effort is when we love, unconditionally, lifting our vibrations so high that negativity and hate have no place. Emotions like shame, guilt, and fear can’t live in a body vibrating that high. With practice and in time we can be restored back to love, harmony, and joy and increasing our vibrations even more.

Step 5: Law of intention and Desire: “Inherent in every intention and desire is the mechanics for its fulfillment.  Intention and desire in the field of pure potentiality have infinite organizing power. And when we introduce an intention in the fertile ground of pure potentiality, we put this infinite organizing power to work for us.“

*This is what the Laws of Attraction are about; what intention we set is what action we receive. If we say we will fail a test, we will fail the test. If we say we will win the race, we will win the race. What we worry about comes true as well. What ever we give energy to in thought, happens. We do this enough and a thought can become a pattern, and a pattern can becomes a way of life. This alone can cause us to vibrate at a lower level. Set our intention high and in a good place and you will naturally attract what you want.

Step 6: Law of Detachment: “In detachment lies the wisdom of uncertainty. In the wisdom of uncertainty list the freedom from our past, from the known, which is the prison of past conditioning. And in our willingness to step into the unknown, the field of all possibilities, we surrender ourselves to the creative mind that orchestrates the dance of the universe.“

*Relinquishing attachment to the end result. Attachment is based on fear and insecurities. When we try to control an outcome we have our own energy on it, so we have taken from the Universe. When we “Let Go and Let God” we are saying we trust that the outcome will be the best for us. In this case there is no good or bad, it is just an outcome. When we release our thoughts around it, the answer will always be as it should. It may not be what we want, but it is always the right answer. Think back to all the unanswered prayers you felt you didn’t receive. How many of those were a blessing in disguise?

Step 7: The Law of Dharma: “Everyone has a purpose in life a unique gift or special talent to give to others. And when we blend this unique talent with service to others, we experience the ecstasy and exultation of our own spirit, which is the ultimate goal of all goals.“

*Dharma, Karma. I heard of karma but never heard of dharma before this year. It literally means living the best life possible. This reminds me of the show Dharma and Greg. Most people thought she was a nut, especially Greg’s parents. Yet, she truly was the quintessential image of Dharma. She loved unconditionally, she always saw the good in people and things, she was always positive, she was compassionate, non judgmental, she was Vegan, and couldn’t hurt a fly. She saw the optimism in everything! For as messed up as her parents were on the show, they raised one hell of a kid. Imagine if we raised our kids to see the world like that and to BE in the world like that? Could you imagine the shift?

I was about having hope, hope that tomorrow is going to be a better day and that I am still alive for a reason. When God calls us back, our time here is done and our lessons have been learned. After years and years of wishing I wasn’t alive anymore I finally came to the understanding that I must have something pretty powerful to learn. My only hope now is that God will keep me around long enough to enjoy it. You may or not be a spiritual person, I certainly wasn’t and my life always ran amuck. I had one of those lives that I was all over the place, very miserable, and had no grounding force. Slowly but surely I am getting those foundations down. When we live our life by a code, or a set of rules it enables us to have something to build upon. It isn’t about being “holy” it’s about being present and ready! Feel free to take these 7 Laws of Success and alter them to your understanding!

Blessings,

~Kristen

 

What Exactly is a Life Coach?

*This article is the first of a 3 part series regarding the Advanced Life Coaching Seminar I attended this past weekend at the South West Institute of Healing Arts (SWIHA) and the events leading up to it. This is a story of phenomenal spiritual growth and awareness that can occur when someone trusts their instincts and opens themselves up to possibilities of God/Universe/Spirit.*

When I first started Life Coaching many of my my friends asked me “What the heck is a Life Coach?”   I said “I’m not exactly sure… but I think it’s what I am supposed to be doing.” I owned an eyelash extension studio, in fact, I had just started the business but somehow I already knew I made a mistake. I showed up on a Friday night for the weekend intensive Life Coaching kick off. After listening to the facilitators talk about what Life Coaching was and how it would impact my life and how I will be changed forever it sounded pretty intriguing. My life was a complete mess at the moment, so I was game. We were divided into groups of 2 and I went through the weekend in a series of very uncomfortable exercises that involved asking “powerful” questions of my partner in order to find out where they had hidden obstacles or blocks in their life. Everyone was talking about these powerful questions, I kept asking myself “What does that mean, a powerful question? Am I the only person who doesn’t get this? What are powerful questions and how do I find them, are they on a list somewhere or something?”

Everyone seemed to know what to do and everyone I was paired up with was not very encouraging. Then we went through some very pleasant guided meditations so I really enjoyed that. I felt relaxed and thought ok well, this is kind of cool. I never really did that before, go through a guided meditation. It’s a form of hypnosis designed to quiet your mind and allow you to look deep within yourself. Then all of a sudden, people were crying, claiming “spiritual break-through” and enormous healing was taking place. Everyone was hugging, saying that God was in the house and all of this was a Divine appointment. All this excitement and people laughing and claiming to feel God and see God. I thought” Why would God be in a Life Coaching seminar? What did I stumble into? What did I get myself into?” I was NOT at all religious and barely had any spirituality about me, and I really didn’t care to try it on at the moment. I was actually kind of perturbed at the fact we were discussing “religion” at a public seminar.

Over all, it was a nice seminar. The facilitators’ were extraordinary in the fact I never heard this kind of talk before, it was a new way of learning things as they introduced a new perspective to life. Although I didn’t understand it all I was at least interested in hearing more. Something just kept telling me I had to be there. They really laid into the fact of having to have a spiritual base, a foundation of something to believe in greater than ourselves, that we were not created to be here alone, we are in Spirit always. I’m paraphrasing but that was the gist. We refer to God as God, Universe,Spirit, or GUS. They said “We are Spirits Beings having a Human Experience.” More religion, I thought, but it wasn’t SO bad. As Life Coaches, in their perspective, we need a spiritual balance because the answers for our clients  don’t come from us. During a coaching session the answers come from the client. We are simply a conduit, or a vessel for God/Spirit/The Universe to flow through us and work with the client. We just keep vigilant, or hold space, listen and be supportive. We ask open ended questions (found out that’s what “powerful” meant) designed to let the client look deep with in themselves to find their own answers. In coaching we believe the client holds all the answers for themselves. When working in a spiritual nature, we allow Spirit to be a part of the process allowing for the highest attainment of knowledge and assistance. Ok, that’s not so bad I guess, I began trying it on…a little.

The last exercise involved a small business portion where we had to work in groups of 3’s and pitch our Life Coaching business. We had to pretend we had a business card and do little 1 minute presentations to each other about why we would be great coaches. Ok cool, I’m a business owner this will be a breeze. So, I get in my group, made my presentation and this lady looked at me and said “That is the worst “sell” I have ever heard in my entire life. If you gave me your business card I would tear it up and throw it in the garbage. You’re terrible!” Alrighty then….maybe Life Coaching wasn’t in my future.

I did somehow find the courage to come back for the 10 week course and upon entering the class I saw someone in there I did not want to see. Someone I had a large problem with in the past. My head is reeling now, what is going on here? My teacher took the attitude with me that I was “in my head” and I think somewhere in his head at the time dismissed me as being potentially nuts. I felt like everyone was against me, everything just was an unpleasant experience and I had no idea why. I was uncomfortable, terrified, lonely, and unsure. So with that in mind I came back every week, twice a week still trying to figure out what powerful questions were and how I was going to change my life and others. All around me at school people kept talking about how amazing Life Coaching is and I looked at them in such dismay thinking What was so wonderful? What wasn’t I getting? Why are my sessions so stumbly? What is wrong with me?

What I didn’t know at the moment was that I was having a Spiritual Crisis. I had been operating my whole life with out any kind of spiritual foundation. I believed in God, that “someone” may have been up there, but I didn’t think He was for me. I felt like my crimes of the past were too severe for God, plus somewhere it didn’t make sense to me. I have never talked about religion or had any interest in it, really. I dabbled in a few things here or there but here, in this school, Spirit was everywhere, I was faced with the daily dilemma of hearing about it and the teachers bringing “It” into our class. I used to think “Can’t we do all this work with out God being involved?” Thank God that was one of the few times I decided NOT to voice my thoughts, I would have totally embarrassed myself.

Even though I had left Michigan 3 years prior and found sobriety, I had a whole lot of baggage that I needed to address and dismantle and the only way to do it was through Spirit. My husband lovingly pushed me along on this path, somewhere probably hoping that I would hear the message I needed to hear to finally get well. I wasn’t happy about being at SWIHA anymore; I felt rebellion building up in me and I was becoming angry at the thought of being there, talking about God and the Angels and Spirit guides and all that other stuff. I wasn’t getting along well in the class and started really disliking Life Coaching. I wasn’t making any friends and I began pulling myself back deeper with in my shell. I began feeling overwhelmed with sadness and guilt.

Little did I know what would happen next….

 

It’s a Beautiful Day…..on the Road to Success!

I finally got my website published yesterday. What began as a quest to put together a simple synapsis of what my business would be like and services offered turned into an unbelievable experience I won’t soon forget. What did I really want to have happen? What type of business did I really want to have? I would go back and forth to the computer analyzing this possibility, thinking over that possibility, etc. I spent hundreds of hour’s researching websites from every Life Coach, Hypnotherapist and Tarot Reader I could find. I studied what worked for them, what didn’t, what I liked, and what I didn’t. It all made me begin to realize that this was for real! This was not just something to throw together this indeed was the face front of what I wanted my life’s work to be about! Start throwing words around like that and suddenly you begin to think like you are an important person or something, you now have “work”. The only “face front” I ever had was a drunk face front so…… I’m kind of behind the 8 ball a bit.

Moving on, it had become a daunting task, because now I had a purpose. Now it had to be really special and have the greatest representation of how my business would come across. Have you seen some of the websites out there? There are some really good ones and even more bad ones. I didn’t want to fall somewhere in the middle, I wanted to be in the top 10 of what I saw out there. I wanted people to know that “Hey I am serious about this!” But everyday I sat sown in front of my computer uninspired, unfeeling, and unsure of what it was exactly I would be doing with my business. I had been on this journey of self discovery through school for about 16 months and I still didn’t feel as though I had arrived. I felt like I was still out there in the ethers..floating.

After my ordination in early December I thought ok, this is it, now it is time to knock this out of the park. I have completed the bulk of my education and I am ready to roll. I sat back down in front of the computer once again but just stared at the screen. Nothing flowed from my soul into my fingers. I had a few rough ideas here and there but nothing concrete. I started to feel like maybe I had made a mistake, like all the times before. I would get so excited about a new idea and throw my life into it only to fail. My husband was kind of enough to remind me that Abraham Lincoln failed like a million times before he became president and everyone laughed at Thomas Edison and his light bulb. I said “That was like 10 million years ago, this is happening right now!” He said “It’s when you don’t try that you are failing.” I didn’t know if I should hug him or slap him. Maybe secretly I wanted to be a failure, I was tired of being embarrassed when something doesn’t work. All I ever wanted was my own business and each time I had it, it failed. I began to clearly feel that maybe I was better off being a worker bee instead of an entrepreneur.

My teachers and friends at school assured me that I was great at what I was doing and this was my true calling. As I would look at them though my eyes I would be saying “Are you kidding me? Don’t you know who I am? I don’t succeed, I fail miserably!” I have spent my life busting my ass to make other people money, and did it well Yet when it came for myself there never seemed to be enough money to start it up or enough time to do it right. That is the one thing about SWIHA I have to say is that from day 1 they drill it into your head you can and will succeed. They don’t question your ability; they naturally have faith that all of their students will be a stellar success. I thought that was pretty cool since some of us there have serious emotional and physical damage from past issues. Mostly everyone I met was either an addict, a recovering addict, in and out of abusive relationships, or can’t quite nail down what it is they want to do with their life. None of us really fit in mainstream academia. One things is for sure, it is a school for people who need a different way to get well in a way that nothing else had ever worked for any of them. At least that was my story. Remember, I only went the originally to see if I could get my hours for an Arizona massage license. I walked out enrolled in a 2 year degree.

I put it in my head that over Christmas break I would finish my website, my blog, and my Facebook page and have it all published and at least look like I had a business going. What happened next was nothing short of a miracle. One morning I sat down on the computer and magic words began to flow out of my fingers and onto the screen. I actually had a feeling like I knew what I was doing. I felt like someone else was possibly ‘driving the car’ but who cares, maybe Spirit knows better about these things. I remember that song by Carrie Underwood (I think) called “Jesus Take the Wheel”, maybe Spirit took the computer. However it happened it kept me clicking keys for 18 days straight. Out of that came every single aspect of how I wanted my business to be. What shocked me more is that I actually believe that this is a formidable business. I know it will be successful and last night I was telling my husband I expect to gross 30,000 a month in the first year. No I wasn’t drunk or high, I was being real. I said the more money we make with this ministry the more we can give it to the people who need it most. God knows we have been there. He stood there and while trying to remain calm about the prospect of 30,000 dollars a month he looked at me and said I “Well, now I guess you can buy that boat you’ve wanted for a while!” Then he said “I always knew you could do anything you set your mind too, I was just waiting for you to discover it too.”

Before I went to bed I went and looked at my website again. I have never taken a web design course and I am the worst touch typer ever. It took me many hours to get it perfect (in my eyes), but I think for the first time in my life I got it right. The more I typed and formulated the more the ideas and plans just seeped out of me and I don’t even know where it came from because I hadn’t planned it out previously. It was magic. My biggest challenge was getting all the my modalities that I am capable of  and love down to about 4. From there I figure with time it will get down to my number one service. I felt I would leave that part open to the Universe, that the people who need me the most will show up in that particular category. If I can trust Spirit to design my website I’m pretty sure They will send me the people I need to help. How wonderful is that? I get to help people heal and help them to feel god about themselves. It’s a beautiful day…I haven’t said that in years…Enjoy!!!

Blessings,

Kristen